I am a total mess. Hormones are evil.

I feel like crap half the time because I'm always on Evan to make good decisions - something he's not been doing since I had the doctor switch his medication. Now I want to tell his doctor to switch it back and he's probably going to think I'm crazy (see next paragraph regarding indecisiveness). I feel horrible because I totally snapped at Evan this afternoon and made him feel bad and start crying - which has had me crying all evening just thinking about how I behaved.

Besides that.. I am now indecisive woman. I can't make a decision and stick to it. And even when I do I feel like a made a mistake or that I'm doing something wrong. I deleted my entire baby registry at Babies R Us and started a new one at Target because the items are less expensive there. Then I changed my mind about the crib bedding about a thousand times and I'm still not happy. And it doesn't even matter because I'm NOT having a shower! So why am I making myself nuts?

I also can't seem to make myself go to work very often these days. I have medical leave days available and use them like they're going out of style. I know I should go to work, but I hate my job, can't stand most of the people there or the one's I have to deal with on the phone, and I really like being at home with Evan. Of course, Jeremy has no problem with me staying home and tells me to stay home whenever I feel like it. Well, that makes it really easy for me to do just that... all the time... and then I feel really guilty for not going. But then I wake up the next day and decide to stay home again!

I'm pregnant which apparently means I am crazy.