Yesterday was better than the day before, but today totally sucked again. I can't wait to quit my job. Unfortunately, that almost happened today.

It's becoming so unbearable at that place. It took everything I had in me to stay seated and bite my tongue. What I really wanted to do... and almost did... was stand up and scream before walking out. I even packed up my desk. All of my personal items were in the back seat of my car by noon today. That way, if I do happen to lose my mind during the course of the day, I won't have anything to worry about as I'm heading toward the door flipping off several of my favorite people in management.

Blah!

Let's hope tomorrow is a better day.

This has been the most screwed up day. I should have worked the entire day instead of flexing out at eleven-thirty. I came home to FAR TOO MUCH drama -- including my oldest son calling me a bitch. Nice, eh? I realize that kids get angry and I'm quite certain that I called my mother a few choice names when I was a teenager, but to hear it from your own kid. Wow.. it's not something I handled well. He's on his way to his dad's house right now. My parents are driving him out there because I can't even look at him without wanting to smack him. I would love to just go to sleep right now and end this day.

Now that we've passed the big ultrasound milestone, I just want the baby to be here already! The next 19 weeks are going to seem like a lifetime. Even Jamie (my oldest) said, "this baby needs to get here already" the other day when we were shopping for baby clothes. I asked him why he said that because I thought maybe he was just tired of me being pregnant and not having a lot of energy and whatnot. He said, "because I'm already sick of waiting."

The month of July is going to be really slow. Not much going on then. By August we should have my annulment decree and be able to set the date for our wedding - which will hopefully be the beginning of September. So.. August and September should go by fairly quickly *fingers crossed* with us planning for the wedding. October brings our childbirth education classes and then... the baby is due November 8th. *sigh* It's sounds a little faster "on paper" than it actually will be.

Here are two of the pictures from our ultrasound yesterday.

This one is a 3D image of the baby's face. The baby is looking to the left. I'm not sure what that is in front of the baby's face, but there are always weird things in ultrasound images that you can't quite figure out. If you know Jeremy personally, you can see that the baby has his full lips from this picture.

Baby G's face - 3D

This is just a regular ultrasound picture of the babys head and body. The head is on the left (for those of you who aren't accustomed to looking at ultrasound pictures). The baby's hand is up by the face and I believe those are legs above the body.

Baby G

Well, we are back from the ultrasound and we now know what we are having.....

.... and we're not telling. *grin*

OK, so.. I know I already posted about this early this morning, but we are leaving for the ultrasound in thirty minutes and I am SO NERVOUS and EXCITED. I thought I was going to throw up on my way home from work. I have no idea why I am so nervous. Perhaps because this is my last opportunity to think there is a chance that this baby could be a GIRL. I just know it's going to be a boy. The only thing that matters, of course, is that the baby looks healthy and is developing properly. BUT.. it would be really nice if it is a girl. Do you want to know why I think it's a boy? Well, one reason is that we want it to be a girl so badly so it must be a boy. The second reason is that the baby's heartbeat is always between 145 and 155 bpm. Girls usually have a faster heart rate - in the 160's and 170's. I guess we will know soon enough, eh?

Today is the big day! We have our ultrasound today at 1:40pm. You know.. so they can tell us what I already know... that it's another boy. *grin* I have to work until 11:30 and Jeremy is working until noon. I have no idea how I am going to focus on work this morning.

My mom, Jeremy, Evan and I went out for dinner yesterday at Johnny Carino's. It was absolutely delicious, but I paid for it all night.

I ordered the Shrimp Scampi which was an amazing dish - description: black tiger shrimp, freshly sliced mushrooms, pan sautéed chopped garlic tossed with angel hair pasta & fresh basil in a white wine butter sauce, garnished with roma tomatoes and parmesan cheese.

I can't remember the last time I enjoyed a meal that much. Unfortunately, since I am pregnant, enjoying a meal at the time doesn't mean I will continue to enjoy my decision for the rest of the night. Garlic has never stayed with me for so long before. *grin*

This is their Shrimp Scampi. Isn't it beautiful?

I really love this site. Not only is it visually appealing, it's also a fantastic read and, in my opinion, somewhat necessary for good mental health.

I can't stop watching all of the baby shows on Discovery Health Channel. I don't know what it is about those shows. I have been watching them ever since we found out about the baby.

Speaking of the baby... our ultrasound is only one week from today! We're so excited!! I have a feeling it's a boy.

I am finally changing my desktop. Jeremy and I have been addicted to the Detroit Tigers ever since we took Evan to the game at Comerica Park over Memorial weekend. I think we have watched every game since then on television.

Jeremy and I had our meeting with Father Joe yesterday evening. We were so nervous going in there. We had no idea what to expect. Was he going to roll his eyes and think we were the biggest pair of sinners he'd come across? or that he wasted his time helping me along my journey? Nothing of the sort happened.

We explained to him that our original plan was to get married next spring, but that I got pregnant a little ahead of schedule and we want to get married before the baby gets here in November. He said not to worry at all. He'll waive the six month "rule" for us and as soon as my annulment paperwork is approved (a second time) by the tribunal in Grand Rapids, we can begin planning. He said that this may not be the order of the Catholic church, but apparently it is God's order because we have been blessed with this child. He also said that he assumed we would get married sooner or later because we have been going to church together for so long and he sees how much we love each other. I told him how nervous I was about our meeting and he said, "Don't sweat the small stuff." It was the most wonderful experience.

So... Jeremy and I are getting married in the Catholic church!! We are thinking about having an early September wedding. Once we get the annulment decree from Grand Rapids we will go to the church, fill out paperwork and set the date. We are so excited!!

I haven't had much time to "blog" lately. We have so much going on all the time. We had a great time at Jeremy's dads house last weekend. His dad is so nice and so is his new wife. We couldn't have had a better time. The week was long and filled with work and baseball practices and what not.

I got up this morning and went to a few garage sales and a mom-to-mom sale looking for various baby items. We purchased a baby swing and a few items of clothing that were brand new with the tags still on them, but other than that there wasn't much we were interested in. After talking to my sister, it turns out we don't really need all that much. She is giving me back the crib that I gave to her along with a changing table, bouncy chair, clothes, bassinet, travel system etc. That saves everyone from dealing with a baby shower. There's no need to have a baby shower if I already have everything.